[Morningstar Rising]'s diary

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Written about Thursday 2016-02-11
Written: (1468 days ago)

Been a long time since I write in here, to long I guess. Life is life, not much we can do but live it. I have lived in a few different states these pass few years. Have moved around exploring life and meeting new people, which is good. I loved living in Arizona, lived on a hill over looking the City of Kingman. Boy what a sight at night, a city surrounded by mountains on all sides. The sunsets were out of this world and sunrise was like a beautiful dream. One night I sat outside on the back porch just watching the moon, it was so large and so close to the earth that, I felt like I could reach out and touch it. Had a battle with a tarantula, the damn spider would not die, kept coming at me determined to get me, so I finally batted it with the broom when it jump at me. That did not kill it, but it did stop it from coming at me again, it just walked away, climbed over the fence and disappeared into the night. Even with the snakes and scorpions and spiders, I loved living there. One bright day while watching my 3 year old niece play in the back yard, a hummingbird came up to me, it stood in front of me just staring, it was beautiful. I later discovered that it was attracted to my top cause it was red. We hung up a hummingbird feeder, and everyday we would watch them come and feed. I saw a double rainbow over Kingman City, one day after a storm, it was beautiful. I miss the house on the hill, the view of the City, the slow pace of life, the feeling of being home. I hope to return there one day if I am able to. Till then I will dream of the place I long to be, the place where I felt so much at home, where even the heat did not bother me. I will hold on to the dream till the day I pass from this world, for it was truly home to me.

Star Mendoza

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Written about Friday 2012-03-16
Written: (2895 days ago)

Song Of The Nightingale

A cry in the night, the Nightingale sings.
Her song of sorrow, so sad, so sweet.
Heard clear across the darkness, by the ears of the dead.
The living are oblivious, to her sweet soft cry.
Of the light that she sees, in the dead of the night.
The Nightingale sings, a warning to all.
The dead walk among us, in search of that light.
With her sweet song of sorrow,
She guides the dead through the dark.
Begging them to enter, the light of new life.
A cry in the night, the Nightingale sings.
Her sweet song of sorrow, for you and for me.
She waits in the darkness, to guide us back home.
To the light that we came from,
Full of love, full of hope.

Written by [Morningstar Rising] 3/5/12

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Written about Tuesday 2010-11-23
Written: (3374 days ago)


Friendships come, friendships go.
Friends are made, friends are lost.
Love sometimes blooms then dies away,
It flourishes for just a day.

The sun fades bringing the night.
The moon glows bright across darkened skies.
The stars twinkle ever so bright,
Hiding your sorrow in the shadow of the night.

Cloaked in your grief you stand alone,
Facing the darkness consuming your soul,
You fight to live another day.
To meet the sun that warms your flesh,
To dry the tears that streak your face,
To carry on just one more day.

Friendships come, friendships go,
Friendships die each and every day.
Cherish your friends while they are here,
For tomorrow who knows if love will bloom another day.

Friendships come, Friendships go.
Each and every passing day.

Written by: MorningstarRising

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Written about Monday 2010-02-22
Written: (3647 days ago)

From The Secret Daily Teachings

If you make time to list all the things you are grateful for, and you feel the feelings of gratitude, you will feel amazing every day. Your frequency will be high and you will move through your days in love with being alive, bringing joy wherever you go, positively affecting one person after another.

When you live a life like this, everything you want will come before you even ask.

May the joy be with you,

Rhonda Byrne
The Secret... bringing joy to billions

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Written about Wednesday 2010-02-10
Written: (3660 days ago)

Valentine Poetry 10, Page 1

Corridor Of Broken Hearts
the poem

Long dark endless corridor, stretching out for miles and miles.
Broken hearts float in the air, headed towards who knows where.
Shedded tears are all dried now, only streaks remain to tell the tale.
Of the hearts once full of love, now they are just empty shells.
Sorrow ripped them all apart, like ten thousand daggers through the heart.
Broken hearts that never mend, nightmares rise like flooding rains.
Thread lightly as you pass, for no heart here is safe.
Corridor of broken hearts, welcomes all with open arms.

Written by [Morningstar Rising] 2-09-10

Valentine Art 10, Page 1

Corridor Of Broken Hearts
the art


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Written about Tuesday 2010-02-09
Written: (3661 days ago)

From The Secret Daily Teachings

Good is underneath every single thing that appears to be negative. If we can know that good is all there is, including in a negative situation, then we will see a negative situation transform into all good. Most people keep the good away from themselves because they label something as bad, and then, of course, that becomes their reality. But there is no bad in the Universe; it is just our inability to see things clearly from the bigger perspective.

Peace comes from knowing that good is all that exists.

May the joy be with you,

Rhonda Byrne - The Secret... bringing joy to billions
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Written about Monday 2009-03-23
Written: (3984 days ago)

What If

What if I ran away:
Would that solve all the problems in my head?
What if the world stopped spinning:
Would we all just float away?
What if we never met:
Would our lives still be the same?
What if we had a child:
Would it grow up without any doubts?
What if, What if, What if?
Its the story or our lives.

Written by: [Morningstar Rising] 3/19/09
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Written about Wednesday 2008-12-24
Written: (4072 days ago)

Merry Christmas to all my friends and to all members of Elftown, and a very Happy New Year to you all.

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Written about Friday 2008-03-21
Written: (4350 days ago)
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Fathers, we all have them, every single last one of us. Some of us are raised with them. Some of us know who our fathers are, while some of us go through life never having met them. Some of us grow up with them and never know them at all, while others meet them for the first time and bond for a life time. I don't remember my father in the early years of my life, he left my mother when I was around 18 months old. For years I thought of my grandpa as my father, he was the only male figure I knew at the time. My mom left when I was two, she followed him to America and with her she brought her youngest child who was only six months at the time. I, along with my two older sisters where left in the care of our grand folks. My oldest sister left for America a few weeks later, while my other sister and I were left behind. I came to meet my father again when I was five years old, I guess by then it was to late. No real bond was ever formed between us, he was a stranger to me and I wanted my real pa to come and get me. But that never happened and I learned to accept that this was my home now and this was my family. But what happens when trust is lost? What happens when a father violates the trust of his own child? What happens when a father crosses the line that should never be crossed? I'll tell you what happens. hate blossoms and anger turns the world black. Trust that was gained is lost forever and fear that it was your fault and that no one will love you because of it, they take over. You learn to steer away from getting caught alone, afraid that others will see you in a different light. Afraid that fingers will point at you, even though you are only 12, and say it happened cause you let it happen. You are the one to blame for what happened! You are a liar, an evil child for making up those stories!!!! I look back now and I laugh, but I am still sad that it happened at all. We lost a lot when trust was lost. We lost years that can never be taken back, never relived and changed for the better. We live with the sadness of what could have been if not for the lost of trust. My father's birthday is tomorrow, and though he has been gone for almost 14 years now, I still remember his day. I have forgiven him for what he did to me when I was a child, even if there are those that to this day think I am a liar. They never know the father that I did, and I am truly happy that they did not, because they would have hated him too. I have forgiven him and I hope that his soul has moved onto wherever it is that his next journey has taken him. I hope and I pray with all of my heart, that his journey is a good one and that he finds love and happiness and learns true trust. I love you dad, I always have, even when I hated you. I wish you peace and love and all the happiness that the heart can hold.  Maybe one day we will meet again in another life and it will be a better one filled with all the love and happiness we missed out on this one. 

Peace and love dad.
Love always your daughter

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Written about Saturday 2008-03-15
Written: (4356 days ago)
Next in thread: 1018311

Borrowed from [someelf], who borrowed it from [Elisha Kelly], who borrowed it from the lovely [Cia_mar] =3

You have to use ONLY 3 words to answer each question. NO MORE, NO LESS

It's harder than you think

1. Where is your cell phone?: Don't have one.

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend/spouse?: Not a clue

3. Your hair?: Up in ponytail

4. Where is your father?: Hopefully in heaven

5. Cheesecake? Strawberry Shortcake, yummmmmmmmmmm

6. Your favorite things to do?: Read Anne McCaffrey

7. Your dream last night?: Running, jumping, flying.

8. Your favorite drink?: Water straight up

9. Your dream car?: Drives itself around

10. The room you're in?: My white bedroom.

11. George Bush?: Don't know him.

12. Your fears?: Sun won't shine

13. Nipple rings? Looks down, Ouch!!!!

14. Who did you hang out with last night? Keith, My bestfriend

15. What you're not good at? Living my life

16. Your best friend? Keith the man

17. One of your wish list items? Laptop, fully loaded.

18. Where did you grow up?: Brooklyn, in New York

19. The last thing you did?: Answer these questions.

20. What are you wearing? Top, Shorts, socks

21. Tattoo on the small of a back?: Not yet, soon.

22. Ketchup? On fries, yummmmmmmmmmm

23. Your computer? My Life Line

24. Your life?: Still living it.

25. Your mood? Murky, dark, tired

26. Missing? Meaning Of Life.

27. What are you thinking about right now? What A Waste!!!

29. Your work? It never ends.

30. Your summer? Stormy clouds ahead

31. Your relationship status? Single, not looking/

32. Your favorite color(s): Blue, red, black.

33. When is the last time you laughed? After reading this.

34. Last time you cried? An hour ago.

35. High school? Glad its over. :))

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Written about Sunday 2008-03-02
Written: (4370 days ago)
Next in thread: 1015376

Because I Love

You ask why, and I reply.
Because I love you, but I can't be with you.
Because I love you, I know that it will never be.
Because I love you, You are a good soul you see.
Because I love you, I've broken your heart it bleeds.
Because I love you, I don't ever want to leave.
Because I love you, I'm dying ever day you see.
Because I love you, This great burden I must carry on my own
Because I love you, For my sin is loving you.
Because I love you, In my next life I dream of you.
Because I love you, It's the only dream I dream.
Because I love you, When my life is done I'll wait.
Because I love you, I will search until you come.
Becaues You love me, Holding hands as one we will walk.
Because You love me, The smiles upon our face,
Will tell a story thats so geart,
Of two lovers who fell from grace,
Of a love that could not be,
That now has a chance to breath.
Second chances are always free.

Written by: [Morningstar Rising] 3-1-2008

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Written about Monday 2007-08-20
Written: (4565 days ago)

[Artsieladie] has started a new wiki to help writers in Elftown, with spelling, punctuation, grammar usage & the like. It is open to all the writers whom would like help with editing their work. She is looking for others who would also like to help with the editing. If you are interested in helping out, contact her. For those who would like some help go here, Editing Assistance - Elftown.

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Written about Tuesday 2007-04-10
Written: (4696 days ago)


I dreamt of you last night
I stood in a crowded airport
The silence was so loud
Your back it was turned to me
Yet I knew you without a doubt
I reached out and touched you
My hands and voice they trembled
As I whispered your name
You turned to me, you smiled
My heart it leaped with joy
Into your arms I fell
Your lips devoured mine
Your kiss was deep, was hungry
Full of passion running wild
My tears they flowed freely
My heart was filled with glee
For in your arms was I
At long last I was with you
If only for that night
In dreams you're always with me
We love, we laugh, we dance
Our night is filled with passion
Our love it shines real bright
In dreams I'll always love you
Until the morning light.

Dedicated to Aijin, who has inspired me more then he will ever know.

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Written about Friday 2007-03-30
Written: (4707 days ago)


My inspiration is gone, it grew wings-it took flight
It flows on the wind, far away from my sight
Empty inside......... My words they are gone
They drifted away on the wind one late night
I search and I search...........
But they are nowhere to be found
They play hide-n-seek, behind all the gray clouds
My muse has vanished, evaporating like smoke
Drifting endlessly up, far away from my soul
I search and I search.........
But the words they don't come
They elude me each time, hiding far from my sight
My inspiration is gone, it floats on the wind
Far away to a land, that my mind cannot gleem
My muse has vanished, far from my sight
It grew wings... It took flight....
Now I'm empty inside

Written on 3-30-07

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Written about Monday 2007-03-26
Written: (4711 days ago)
Next in thread: 928330, 960150

Kind of blue today, lost someone who I thought was a really good friend of mine. Made me cry cause I really did not expect it. I thought that even though people change, when you are true friends you can work through anything. Guess I was wrong, even friendships that blossom like spring flowers, eventually die. If I had a child, I would have loved my child to be like this friend. This friend held nothing back, told it like it was, gave their opinion even if you did not agree with it. This friend I will miss more then they will ever know. I wish them well from my heart and hope that they have a wonderful life. I want this friend to know that I will never forget them, even if they no longer wish to be my friend. I don't know if they will ever read this, but I had to write down how I felt, its the only way I know how to express myself.

Sad and Confussed Star<img:stuff/cr-gif.gif>

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Written about Tuesday 2007-02-27
Written: (4739 days ago)
Next in thread: 914705


I spend my life in pain
Afraid to say my name
Like thunder roaring loud
Silence binds me down
The weight upon my chest
Crashes me to the ground
I try to rise in vain
My legs they let me down
I lay back on the ground
My eyes casted to the sky
I pray for help to come
But no one hears my silent cries
My tears they roll down free
As my life seeps out of me
The world it grows so dark
And yet a light I see
I wonder where I'm bound
If God still loves me so
If the gates of heaven will open
For one as weak as I
My life is full of regrets
Of things unsaid and done
Of yesterdays that are gone
Of tomorrows that will never come
Today is almost done
And with it is my life
Darkness fills my eyes
No more sunrises will I see
I wonder if God still loves me
If the gates of heaven will open
For one as weak as I
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Written about Monday 2007-02-26
Written: (4740 days ago)
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Written about Sunday 2007-01-21
Written: (4776 days ago)

Elftown Wiki Poetry Dueling Arena

Yay Me my poem is in a duel at Realistic, go check it out


Sisters, what rivalry there is
Festering from childhood through out the years
It's funny how that came to be
To many tales to tell you see
A bond of trust there is no more
Broken by the many lies one told
A bad word here, a hushed up lie
The hurt to deep cuts like a knife

Sisters, they'll never speak again
One took and took, the other gave
It hurts like hell to learn the truth
Of hate so raw it cannot hide
Blinded are her eyes no more
She's seen the light, how sad she feels
Her love was true all through the years

Sisters, their lives have taken seperate paths
The needs, the wants, that we all have
To share true love is joy untold
When blood feuds blood the tears they flow
The price is great, so much is lost
Each and every passing day

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Written about Sunday 2006-12-31
Written: (4797 days ago)
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Today is a sad day for me, it is the first year that I will spend without my mom, she passed away last New Year's Eve.
I can celebrate the passing of the old year into the new year, but it will never be the same for me.
I will always recall the found memories I have of mom.
Every New Year's Eve she had to have 12 grapes and we all had to have them cause it was tradition.
She use to say, 'One grape, sweet and ripe, picked from the earth, to give you life. One grape for every month of the New Year to fill you with sweetness and full of cheer.'

Her name was Josepha Sanchez, she was the light that held my family together.
Since she has been gone, the family that she so loved has drifted far apart.
For her I shead the tears that I do not normally shead for others when they pass.
She bore nine children into this world.
Married when she was only 13 (a child herself), to a man 10 years her senior.
There marriage lasted a life time, he was the love of her life.
After his death, Mom was never the same.
Though she went on with her life from day to day, she missed him more then life itself
If she could have died when dad did, Mom would have, but she out lived him by 11 years and died at the same age as he did, 71.

Mom I really miss you very much. The long conversations we use to have on the telephone.
The late night calls when you could not sleep and needed just to hear one of your childrens voice
The chinese dinners that you loved so much, even though I did not care for chinese food that much.
The spanish concerts that you use to drag us to, even though we protested that it was not our type of music, we still had a great time
Your laughter and the smile that use to light up your face and make your dark brown eyes glow with life.
The bingo nights that you so loved to go to, even though you hardly ever won.
I miss you Mom, more then I can put into words.
More then I ever thought that I would.

My heart cries for my loss and leaps with joy because I had you in my life.
I look at your picture and smile, remembering the good and the bad times we shared.
I hope to see you again one day Mom, but not to soon cause I still have a lot of living to do.

I hope that you are happy were ever you are.
I love you Mom, now and always, from here to the end of time.
Till we meet again Mom, know that you were loved,
that you are still loved and that you will live forever in my heart.
Hugs and Kisses Mom, and a pinch or two here and there. LOL

Love Always YOur Daughter

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Written about Thursday 2006-12-21
Written: (4807 days ago)

I came on yesterday and got the nicest surprise, someone gave me a wonderful Christmas present. They donated funds to Elfpack in my name. I would like to thank whom ever it was that donated funds in my name. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, from the bottom of heart. I wish you the very best in the the new coming year and hope that your Christmas is filled with lots of wonderful stuff.

Hugs and kisses, Love Shay
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Written about Tuesday 2006-12-19
Written: (4809 days ago)

Stolen from Debbie, who stole it from Lys, who stole it from Ki

A) 4 Names people call you:
1. Shay
2. Tita
3. Shorty
4. Lovie

B) 4 places you have lived:
1. Puerto Rico
2. New York
3. New Jersey
4. Florida

C) 4 jobs you have had in your life:
1. Typist
2. Accounting Clerk
3. Assistant Buyer (Childrens Ware)
4. Nannie

D) 4 movies you could watch over and over:
1. The Fifth Element
2. Resident Evil
3. Ghost
4. Cinderella

E) 4 TV shows you love to watch:
1. Lost
2. Medium
3. CSI
4. Star Gate

F) 4 Places you have been on vacation:
1. Puerto Rico
2. Disney World {Orlando Florida)
3. Finland
4. Fort Lauderdale (Florida)

G) 4 websites you visit daily (or semi-weekly):
1. Elftown
2. Gaia On Line
3. Elfpack
4. The Doll Palace

H) 4 of your favourite foods:
1. Salmon
2. Peanut Butter and Jam
3. French Crepes
4. Chocolate Covered Strawberries

I) 4 things you are allergic to:
1. Cat's (But I love them anyway)
2. Strawberries (Still eat them)
3. Pollen, Dust, Dander
4. Flowers

J) 4 of your siblings names (if you have any):
1. Iris
2. Carlos
3. Jose
4. Rosa Maria

K) 4 places you would love to travel to:
1. England
2. Hawaii
3. Australia
4. Alaska

L) 4 of your pets:
1. Cat (Spooky)
2. Dog (Sky)
3. Love Bird (Bubbles)
4. Hamster (Butter)

M) 4 things you want for Christmas this year:
1. My Own PC
2. My Own Apartment
3. My own Cell
4. Loads Of Games

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