I`ll be gone for a week again !! This time I`ll go to a foreign country (yay ^^)
anyway , see you all in a week ;)
I am making this because I am very , very bored ...and because I like those enquete thingies :P
1. First Name:
2. Were you named after anyone?
Yes I was named after my great grand mother from my fathers side and after my grandmother from my mother`s side .
3. Do you wish on stars?
4. Which finger is your favorite finger?
My pinkies ,dunno why.
5. When did you last cry?
...Pff....a few weeks ago during a movie
6. Do you like your handwriting?
No I hate it XD
7. What is your favorite lunch-meat?
Roast beef *.*
8. Any bad habits?
I bite my finger/toenail
9. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf?
A kinderen voor kinderen CD , I still know all the lyrics *blushes *
10. If you were another person, would you be friends with YOU?
Hell no , I`d prolly think I was weird lol :P
11. Are you a daredevil?
Naah , I`m a chicken
12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?
Yeah but only when the person in question already told it her or his self
13. Do looks matter?
Well its nice if someone is good looking ,but its not the first thing I`m looking at.
14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid?
....all the time.
15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?
I used to but after endless searches I`ve lost my beliefs :P
16. Do fish have feelings?
They sure do , believe me.
17. Are you trendy?
Hahaha hell no!
18. How do you release anger?
In my head
19. Where is your second home?
At my cousin`s place
20. Do you trust others easily?
No I trust others hardly :P
21. What was your favorite toy as a child?
I liked stuffed animals a lot but it turned out that I was allergic for them.
22. What class in school do you think is totally useless?
This might sound stupid but I think that every class is usefull in some way
23. Do you have a journal?
Yes...like this one maybe?
24. Do you use sarcasm?
...All the time ;)
25. What do you look for in a boy/girl?
Kindness and passion , nothing more really
26. What is your nickname?
I have a lot..but its mainly hatty or han-han
27. Would you ever bungee jump?
NO! I`m affraid of hights !
28. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
....My shoes don`t have strings...so I think that makes a no :P
29. Do you think that you are strong?
Mentally or physically ? Mentally ; sometimes , Physically ; I`m the strongest girl in my class so yeah
30. What's your favorite ice cream flavor?
31. What's your favorite color?
I like all colours
32. What is your least favorite food?
Its a dutch dish called "snert" It looks like someone just puked on your plate :/
33. How many wisdom teeth do you have?
34. Are you in love with anyone?
35. How many people have a crush on you right now?
Dunno and I as hell don`t want to know either :P
36. Who do you miss most right now?
I don`t think I`m missing anyone..Well Yeah I missed [Michael Asher] a lot but he`s back again ^^
38. What color pants are you wearing?
None , I`m sitting in my bathrobe ^^
39. What are you listening to right now?
Blues and jazz
41. What was the last thing you ate?
42. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
I`m pretty sure I would be Red
43. How is the weather right now?
Its sunny ^^
44. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
Wobbe ny vacation schnabbel (oeh talk about stupid words XD)
45. First thing you notice about the opposite sex?
47. How are you today?
I`m quite well although I think I have a pretty bad cold :/
49. Favorite alcoholic drink?
50. Favorite sport?
Martial art things ^^
51. Hair color?
52. Eye color?
Brown or green
53. Do you wear contacts?
Nope , I have a vision of 150 percent
54. Siblings and their ages?
One sister , age 15
55. Favorite month?
56. Favorite food?
Lasagna or something with fish
57. Last movie you watched?
House of flying daggers
58. Favorite day of the year?
59. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Only when I really like the guy
60. Scary movies or happy endings?
61. Summer or winter?
62. Hugs or kisses?
Can`t choose , Both!!
63. Relationships or one-night stands?
Relationships , period ^^
68. What books are you reading? I`ve just finished "komt een vrouw bij de dokter" At the moment I`m not reading anything.
69. Favorite board game? Kolonisten van Catan
70. What did you watch on TV last night? Nothing cuz the tv is broken , I watch anime on the computer instead. I watched Girls Bravo . Stupid anime , really lame :P
71. How clean is your house? My mom`s house is clean , my dad`s house is a mess..so I guess its moderate :P
72. Favorite smells? Georgio armani , my ex has that scent , it smells goooooood ...I think I`m gonna steal his perfume :P
73. What is the first thing you think when you wake up?
"Nooo I had such a nice dream, let me sleep more >< "
74. Now, did you notice that there were numbers missing?
Eeerm to be honest....no I didn`t..
I lost my sketchbook with 2 close-to-perfe
*runs through the house screaming while annoying her father and sister*
I found them a day later , after a lot of searching through the entire house..therefo
For all the people I talk to on elftown , I`ll be on vacation from this day on until next week. I won`t be able to read , or sent messages while I`m gone. I will when I get back though , so please don`t stop sending messages :P
Wish me a nice vacation ! ^^
The difference between you and me
I like to walk through life at an easy pace
Observing the things around me ,
absorbing all the details.
I walk through my life slowly,
so I won`t miss a thing.
I know I`ll reach my goals either way.
There is no need to rush.
And then theres you.
You like to rush through life,
like its a race.
Always failing to see,
the small things at your path.
Thinking that if only you have haste ,
you won`t miss a thing.
Don`t you know that if you rush through life ,
and don`t take the time to observe.
You`ll miss everything ?
Poem written by me and by myself alone . So no stealing , or touching.
You can look though :P
I`ve figured out that when I`ve had too much to drink , I say everything what I think out loud. Especially the nasty things..
So.. when I`m drunk , I become a nasty , mean person. Especially to interested guys 0.o
The good thing is that I never drink a lot of alcohol , but last week I did...and I insulted a person. Or maybe more. DAaamn I can`t remember it right -.- Anyway I said some very nasty things 0.o Bad me, BAD!!:P
My sis has bought a digital camera , so I guess in the near future there will be some normal pics of me to watch over here :P
Or not because I think she`d rather photograph our sweet little puppies ^^ Then you`ll get to see those .
Or maybe You`ll get to see me in a weird ninja mood ^^
Yeah..Fear me and my coca cola bottles , for they will whoop your arse :P
Finished two weeks of my working weeks , that means I still have one to go.
I swear , if it wasn`t for the money I had burned the whole company down ages ago -.-" It really motivates me to finish highschool and after that do the most difficult study possible so that I don`t have to do this crappy work when I grow up 0.o
Just imagine you and lots of old man shirts that you have to iron and close the buttons from eight hours per day , I can actually feel my IQ staggering every day I work..
If it werent for the money , I would`ve quit after the first day XD
Got my hair cut , haircutter thought it would be funny to make me look like a boy -.-"""
I said it had to stay OVER my shoulders , not on top of it.
Geesh.. They never really do listen do they ?
aah well , It will grow back . Until then I`ll wair a hat or something XD
This is what my cat at my moms house does all day long..
1 . lay down at one side of my fat body
2 . roll over to the other side of my body
3 . wait until someone is willing to carry me to my eating basket.
4 . Search up some sun to lay in
6 . I can do that "miauw" sound really well to ^^
7 . Pester that stupid blonde kid that calls herself my master but refuses to bring me food. I hate her , she tries to scare me all the time.
And thats all I guess....
Oh lookie have you noticed! I can use pseudo HTML now !! OOh I feel smart:P
My most overused phrase of this week : " Soms hea, wordt ik zo MOE van mezelf "
I say that phrase everytime I do something wrong or whenever I can`t find something -.-
The things I hate about my summer job :
*I have to get up really early
*I have to work 8 hours per day
*Its bloody hot because of the heat in there and because of the hot steam machine thingies XD
*Cellphones are NOT allowed -.-
*You can`t sit anywhere so my feet hurt like hell
*The work I have to do is very simple and therefore boring and brainkilling (five minutes feel like a half hour..)
*I have burnt myself several times now
*I have also gotten several shocks
* Those damned clothes although they`ve been washed , still smell like old lady piss or even poop...
*Because of my size , all of the working clothes in stock are too big -.-
* I`m too small to reach some upper planks so I have to jump a lot and therefore I now have really sore ankles
*The lady in the cafetaria looks dirty and I really hope that she doesn`t make the daily soup by herself
* I feel gross because during work I sweat a lot and I don`t get the chance to refresh myself for EIGHT FUCKING hours ><
The things I like about my summer job.
* I am smarter than most employers are and therefore I feel intelligent
* I have four breakes per day which is nice
* IT PAYS GOOD
* My collegues are nice people ^^
* The tea and coffee in the caffeteria is free ! ^^
* We get FREE icecream *.*
* The radio is on .
* Because everyone else is at least 20 years older than me , they think of me as a child and therefore help me with everything and pamper me a little (Well I still have to work my ass of but at least they feel sorry for me:P Poor little baby )
* I now know the 50+ fashion by hearth ( Big dresses that with flower print are very hip and happening this season -.-)
* My working clothes are pretty neat , I kinda look like a doctor.
* My cousin Yeb works there to and I can see him during the breaks ^^
* eeeh...I now know how to steam and iron not only clothes but also curtains and blankets (that comes in handy you know..)
* Yeb has to do suckier things than me.. heee heee
OKey..and now it is for YOU to guess where I work!!
Well at what company.. I give y`all a hint..
Clothes and Steam...
Note to myself: You use the word Bitch too much , you are starting to annoy people with it.
I just bombarded the movie "What dreams may come" to be my favorite one. That film made me cry several times (which is like..really hard because I don`t cry easily ) and because of the what I think greatness of the story it has become my number 1 ^^
The puppies have their eyes open now 0.o So cute!! I musn`t get attached to them though , I can`t keep any of them anyway :(
Find your birthday and then find your tree. This is really cool and
Dec 23 to Jan 01 Apple Tree
Jan 01 to Jan 11 Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 Lime Tree
Mar 21 (only) Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 Fig Tree
Jun 24 (only) Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 Lime Tree
Sep 23 (only) Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11 Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 Fig Tree
Dec 22 (only) Beech Tree
YOUR TREE (in alphabetical order)
Apple Tree (the Love) -- quiet and shy at times, lots of charm,
appeal, and attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile,
adventurous, sensitive, loyal in love, wants to love and be loved,
faithful and tender partner, very generous, many talents, loves
children, needs affectionate partner.
Ash Tree (the Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious,
impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious,
intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be very
egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional support.
Beech Tree (the Creative) -- has good taste, concerned about its
looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career,
economical, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable,
splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports,
Birch Tree (the inspiration) -- vivacious, attractive, elegant,
friendly, unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess,
abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very
passionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and
Cedar Tree (the Confidence) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt, likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident
Chestnut Tree (the Honesty) -- of unusual stature, impressive,
well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, born diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit.
Cypress Tree (the Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it , strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.
Elm Tree (the Noble-mindedne
Fig Tree (the Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed,
honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hard worker when wants to be, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, few sexual relationships, great sense of humor, has artistic talent and great intelligence.
Fir tree (the Mysterious) -- extraordinary taste, handles stress
well, loves anything beautiful, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them, hard to trust others, yet a social butterfly, likes idleness and laziness after long demanding hours at work, rather modest, talented, unselfish, many friends, very reliable.
Hazelnut Tree (the Extraordinary) -- charming, sense of humor, very demanding but can also be very understanding, knows how to make a lasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics, popular, moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.
Hornbeam Tree (the Good Taste) -- of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.
(I`m this! ^^) Lime Tree (the Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life dishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for family and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use them, can become a complainer, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times but extremely loyal.
Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) -- no ordinary person, full of
imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud,
Oak Tree (the Brave) -- robust nature, courageous, strong,
unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.
Olive Tree (the Wisdom) -- loves sun, warmth and kind feelings,
reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of
Pine Tree (the Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace and harmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write poetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to, emotionally soft, low self esteem, needs affection and reassurance.
Poplar Tree (the Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident
goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.
Rowan Tree (the Sensitivity) -- full of charm, cheerful, gifted
without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest,
and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.
Walnut Tree (the Passion) -- unrelenting, strange and full of
contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon,
unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no
flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.
Weeping Willow (the Melancholy) - likes to be stress free, loves
family life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic,
loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to
exotic places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others Laugh.
Ima Lime tree !! ^^
made some pwettyfull drawings yesterday ^^ Yay for me !!
One is like really depressing and the other one is pretty and colourfull . I hope I get the chance to draw a lot this summer.
The mermaid found a swimming lad
Picked him for her own
Pressed his body to her body
Laughed, and plunging down;
Forgot in cruel happiness
That even lovers drown...
W. B. Yeats
Waah thats harsh 0.o XD
My ex and I had our first real conversation again . It was fun to talk to him , made me realise about how much I`ve missed him.
Seems like I`m still not over him yet though , He still makes my heart skip two beats and I still feel the same.
I`m just glad we are capable of being friends again ^^ Being friends is enough for me . It really is . Seems weird huh ? But I am happy as the way I am now , I am free . Have the time to think and to do whatever I want whenever I want. I want to feel that freedom a little longer.
So , being friends is okey . As long as we can talk and laugh its fine with me .
Because I`ve been thinking about this for a while and I`m very very bored at this moment I`ll start writing my inner thoughts down in this diary . I don`t have things like secret thoughts (and if I had I wouldn`t write them down over here ^^) and even so , most people won`t even bother to read this thing .
Here comes . "The Love Issue"
Yes , The Love Issue . I don`t know if you do , but I think of it a lot. Even more lately and I`ve been thinking about the whole love concept for some time now. How come you can grow to love one person and not by saying his neighbour who is of the same age . Is it the smell , the looks or something else ? Is it because that person gives you attention or because you have the "feeling " you belong to that person . Is it because we don`t want to be alone , and therefore we talk about the whole love thing over and over again.
That can`t be it though . There are persons you have to love, like your family . You also love your friends , although in a different way then you might love that special person. Everybody has a special person , or let me put it differently ; Everybody NEEDS a special person to cling to. Without other people that love us back , we`d die. I`m not talking about a lover , I`m talking about all sorts of love. Friendship , sisterlike , everything. Just imagine ; if nobody on the whole planet would love you . Not even your family , your so called friends and you wouldn`t be capable of loving anyone but yourself . Would you have a good life ? Or wouldn`t you mind because you wouldn`t know what love is and therefore you don`t miss it ? I wonder ..
I do think that everybody needs at least one person that loves them . Presumably more. I think you need all the kinds of love you could get . That one feeling combines all the emotions a person could possibly have and therefore everybody should feel as much of it as possible. Think about it . If you have never loved you wouldn`t know what Hate feels like . Or grief, sorrow , happiness , delight , lust , anger , apprehancion , doubt . You name it. All those feelings are important , even the bad ones. Actually , no feeling is bad. If you can`t feel sadness then how could you possibly be happy with just feeling delighted ? All the positive feelings make up with the negative ones. Balance you know.
But I`m going very offtopic now , I was talking about love and not about the dozen of other feelings that go with it .
When do you know that you love someone instead of like ? I know it when I feel that feeling in my spine . The feeling that another minute with that person would be the greatest and every second without the worst . I know it when I can have that person around me for a whole day without going nuts But , now I wonder . Is that what we call love or do we call it something completely else. Like insanity for example or obsessive compulsive . Everybody must be capable of feeling love , but I also think that it must be a different feeling for everyone else. It must feel different everytime but even though there must be some things that are the same . Because if there wasn`t we wouldn`t call it love but everyone would call it something else (I would call it "That ball in my stomach that just won`t go away.")
Love is a terrible thing , and a great one . One the first side it can leave us depressed and heartbroken when ended (or when things go wrong ) and on the other side when its good (most of times the beginning and always right before things go wrong ) you`ll feel like a better , stonger and more beautifull person.
There , now I feel like I`ve talked enough about the "Love Issue " Although I didn`t figure out anything but hey , if you are still reading this , that must mean I`ve kept you busy for about ..uurmm..10 minutes if you are a slow reader
This isn`t crap actually , this is what I really think. Or feel.. You can call it that ^^
Some Poem I`ve found that touched my soul.
I'll stop loving you when diamonds never sparkle, and flowers cease to grow
When thunder doesnt echo, and rivers do not flow
When hearts no longer wonder, and hands are never held
When smiles are only memories, and hope is never felt
When trees no longer blossom, and the stars refuse to shine
When autumn has no falling leaves, and winter no longer dies
When time has no more tomorrows, and rainbows have no hue..
Then my dear , I'll stop loving you
I love the children and now I`m sad that I can`t be their teacher forever :P I already know their names and their personalities and I`ve grown fond of them so quickly indeed ^^ There is just one spoiled little brat that I don`t like , but I try to be as friendly to her as I am to others. And there is one little guy that stole my heart instantly. He`s like the most troublesome kid of the whole class but he`s so honest and open that I can`t help but to smile when he`s done something naughty again.
And I really really try to treat them all equally . It is working for so far although I`ve killed the spoiled brat forabout 6 times now in my mind ><
Tomorrow we are all going to swim . The whole school I mean. I`m looking forward to playing with my kids (MY kids..sounds weird ..hmmm:P ) but I hope that there won`t be too much fighting. They seem to constantly fight over small things (like whos gonna sit next to whom in the bus or something) but I think they are so glad to be outside for a while that they won`t make too much of a fuss and just enjoy their swimming time.
I did one stupid thing though , I promised them that I`ll jump from the highest plank >< Damn children with their puppy eyes .
Day two of being a teacher : Succes !!