[SirKalon]'s diary

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Written about Tuesday 2004-06-01
Written: (5742 days ago)

Random Ambigous entry
so how do you humans do it fall in love knowing it wont last that we'll die or lose interest causing much pain ive never understood ever not in all yrs i have lived and died. Im not human i wish i where, what am i? im dragon my souls is and forever shall be people walking streets fear without knowing why many are excited and thrilled by me but are scared of me ad do not know why. for centuries i looked after this and what for i dont know it seems worthless at times ive been called devil monster freak so many times these words have lost meaning, the things ive seen and done some wonderus some despicable. Now im here but i remember everything every wound and death ive had every good and bad thing done and it wears me down i feel heavy but most of all i feel a loss for my kin
most killed because humanity feared them called them abominations of god and demons, if we were so then why were revered in china and other aisian comunities why did we protect humanity, sure wome of us killed your kind but many of brood were destroyed by you many left and some like me became substance of the soul and had human booodies the effect was we forgot we were once dragons forgot the essence of flight the power we wielded our arcane knowledge some remebered and sought to destroy humanity and others remembered lamented and died others like me we remember and decided to protect and serve this world some times against humanity and sometimes with humanity.
why i write this i guess to explain myself to tell my tale and whats more to let the world know what i am even if it makes me look insane

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Written about Monday 2004-05-17
Written: (5757 days ago)

Darkness within heavens a lie 5/17/2004 
we alll have personal demons hell we confront from time to time scared cos they sound right and makes sense sometimes. They whisper to us our fears and tells us to do things making them seem right> They torture us by making relive pain from past mistakes or recent ones making us replay it over and over like madness that trips til we feel like we have to cut ourselves to break away from this nightmare we wish to awake knowing we already are to huddle in corner to hide but we cant cos the voices are within us clawing at us our demns our darkness. I know this cos ive suffered and suffer from this ive walked too far down this road of darkness i know i can find a way out if i try but its hard not to give up or despair

  I tried to be good and turned bad i worry sometimes about letting go on myself on my inhibitions but knowing if i did id be irrideemable to this world and everything to it, its why i keep to the past to ideals like bushido or knights code its my security blanket my piece of the world my net.

Im starting to ramble here so ill stop for now

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Written about Wednesday 2004-05-12
Written: (5763 days ago)
Next in thread: 221002

hmm first time ive written a proper entry in here i usually right in my ohter diary but im compelled to ladywood wrote i was knight in shining armour am i? ive done a lot of things in my past some im not too proud of am i truly deserving to be called a knight i wonder, i just help ppl like we are all supposed too so i care for others without caring for reward does this makes me a knight? have i earned my redemption or am i foever dammned? i dont know but i stand in the light now foerever guarding myself and other aginst harm, i lived in the shadow being light for others can someone be the light for me!!!! sorry if this weirds anyone out ive having a rough day and just running words off my head to make me feel better

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Written about Thursday 2004-02-05
Written: (5860 days ago)

if you are interested in the silent thoughts and musings of lttle old moi checkout knightslostdreams on www.onlinediary.com *note you need to have a dairy on there to see mine ok bye now *bows*

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