[American Revolutionary]'s diary

1147147  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-01-31
Written: (3186 days ago)

SLEEP AND DREAM OF THIS
DEATH ANGEL'S KISS
BRINGS FINAL BLISS
COMPLETELY
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, WON'T YOU LET ME STAY?
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, HEAR ME CALL YOUR NAME,
CALL YOUR NAME... SUICIDE
I'VE ALREADY DEID.
YOU'RE JUST THE FUNERAL
I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR... CYANIDE
LIVING DEAD INSIDE
BREAK THIS EMPTY SHELL FOREVERMORE.
WAIT, WAIT PATIENTLY
YOUR DEATH BLACK WINGS
UNFOLDING SLEEP
SPREADING O'ER ME
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, WON'T YOU LET ME STAY?
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, HEAR ME CALL YOUR NAME
CALL YOUR NAME... SUICIDE
I'VE ALREADY DEID.
YOU'RE JUST THE FUNERAL
I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR... CYANIDE
LIVING DEAD INSIDE
BREAK THIS EMPTY SHELL FOREVERMORE.
SAY, IS THAT RAIN OR ARE THEY TEARS
THAT'S STAINED YOUR CONCRETE
FACE FOR YEARS?
THE CRYING, WEEPING, SHEDDING STRIFE
YEAR AFTER YEAR, LIFE AFTER LIFE.
AN AIR OF FRESHLY BROKEN GROUND.
A CONCRETE ANGEL LIT RIGHT DOWN
UPON THE GRAVE WHICH SWALLOWS FAST
IT'S PEACE AT LAST, OH PEACE AT LAST!
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, WO'NT YOU LET ME STAY?
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, HEAR ME CALL YOUR NAME,
CALL YOUR NAME... SUICIDE
I'VE ALREADY DEID.
YOU'RE JUST THE FUNERAL
I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR... CYANIDE
LIVING DEAD INSIDE
BREAK THIS EMPTY SHELL FOREVERMORE.
FOREVER MORE. [AND END THIS WAR]
FOREVER MORE. [AND END THIS WAR]
IT'S JUST THE FUNERAL I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR

1147146  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-01-31
Written: (3186 days ago)

You just stood there screaming
Fearing no one was listening to you
They say the empty can rattles the most
The sound of your own voice must soothe you
Hearing only what you want to hear
And knowing only what you've heard
You, you're smothered in tragedy
And you're out to save the world

Misery
You insist that the weight of the world
Should be on your shoulders
Misery
There's much more to life than what you see
My friend of misery

You still stood there screaming
No one caring about these words you tell
My friend, before your voice is gone
One man's fun is another's hell
These times are sent to try men's souls
But something's wrong with all you see
You, you'll take it on all yourself
Remember, misery loves company

Misery
You insist that the weight of the world
Should be on your shoulders
Misery
There's much more to life than what you see
My friend of misery

You just stood there screaming
My friend of misery

1147145  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-01-31
Written: (3186 days ago)

Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
Speak the words I wanna hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now, but it's opened if you're true
If you can understand the me, then I can understand the you

Lay beside me, under wicked sky
Through black of day, dark of night, we share this pair of lives
The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining

[chorus]
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

Yeah
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there

[chorus]
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

[solo]

Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
The door is closed, so are your eyes
But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
Yes, now I see it

[chorus]
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you

What I've felt, what I've known
So sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, cause I'm the one who waits
The one who waits for you


Oh, what I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, just turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you

(Background) So I dub thee Unforgiven.

Oh, what I've felt
Oh, what I've known

I take this key (never free)
And I bury it (never me) in you
Because you're unforgiven too!

Never free
Never me
Because you're unforgiven too..
Oo-Oh-Oo

1147144  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-01-31
Written: (3186 days ago)

Outta my way
Outta my day
Out of your mind and into mine
Into no one
Into not one
Into your step but out of time

Headstrong
What's wrong?
I've already heard this song before
you've arrived
But now it's time
To kiss your ass good-bye

Dragging me down
Why you around?
So useless

It ain't my fall
It ain't my call
It ain't my bitch

It ain't my bitch

Down on the sun
Down and no fun
Down and out where the hell ya been?
Damn it all down
Damn it unbound
Damn it all down to hell again

Stand tall
Can't fall
Never even bend at all before
you've arrived
But now it's time
To kiss your ass good-bye

Dragging me down
Why you around?
So useless

It ain't my fall
It ain't my call
It ain't my bitch

Outta my way

Outta my way
Outta my day
Out of your mind and into mine
Into no one
Into not one
Into your step but out of time

Headstrong
What's wrong?
I've already heard this song before
You've arrived
But now it's time
To kiss your ass good-bye
And now it's time to kiss your ass good-bye

Dragging me down
Why you around?
So useless

It ain't my fall
It ain't my call
It ain't my bitch

No way but down
Why you're around?
No foolin'

It ain't my smile
It ain't my style
It ain't my bitch

Oh, it ain't mine
Ain't mine
Your kind
Your stepin' out of time
Ain't mine
Your kind
Your stepin' out of time

Dragging me down
Why you around?
No foolin'

It ain't my fall
It ain't my call
It ain't my bitch
You ain't mine

1147142  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-01-31
Written: (3186 days ago)

what is love? when you realize youve hit the wall at the end of it all, a promise of forever is broken and the ground is forever unsteady, im not perfect, ive never been perfect, im not some straight edge person, ive seen and done things that i hate myself for, but youve kept me from hating myself, ive been there when you needed me, but now the tables have turned around, and the world i created with you is slowly coming undone, if you could see what the world looks like through my eyes youd understand, but the again life is tricky, i will never surrender

1147060  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2012-01-29
Written: (3188 days ago)

good news, my mom ordered the navy top for me, its a different one from the one on my page, but its the same style, my step dad wasnt too happy about it, he dont like me wearin military things, which i do, but oh well, i got it to wear it, he said if he catches me wearing it he is gonna burn it, oh well...

1147026  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2012-01-28
Written: (3189 days ago)

Little supernovas in my head
Little soft pulses in my dead
Little souvenirs and secrets shared
Little off guard and unprepared

I was never good enough to find
I was never bad enough to mind
In the middle I will do my best
Take me in your arms and leave the rest

I will give you anything to

Say you want to stay, you want me to
Say you'll never die, you'll always haunt me
I want to know I belong to you
Say you'll haunt me

Together, together we'll be together, together forever

Little variations on my page
Little doors open on my cage
Little time has come and gone so far
Little by little who you are

I can see the patterns on your face
I can see the miracles I trace
Symmetry in shadows I can't hide
I JUST WANT TO BE RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE

I will give you everything to

Say you want to stay you want me too
Say you'll never die, you'll always haunt me
I want to know I belong to you
Say you'll haunt me
[2Xero]

Together, together we'll be together, together forever
I BELONG TO YOU
[2Xero]

Little supernovas in my head
Little soft pulses in my dead
Little souvenirs and secrets shared
Little off guard and unprepared

I will give you anything to
I will give you everything to

Say you want to stay you want me too
Say you'll never die you'll always haunt me
I want to know I belong to you
Say you'll haunt me
[2Xero]

Together, together we'll be together, together forever
I BELONG TO YOU
[2Xero]

1147025  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2012-01-28
Written: (3189 days ago)

1) Go to en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_number-one_hits_(United_States)
2) Find the song that was #1 the week you were born. (october 14, 1992)
3) Find the YouTube video
4) Post the link in your diary with no shame... (no shame my ass!!)
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7CRY_0krxrg]

1145500  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2011-12-21
Written: (3227 days ago)

when you came into my life, you made me whole
you took the shattered remnants of myself and fit them back the way they should be
then, when i fell apart, you were there to hold me together
when i cried, your shoulder was there for me to cry on
when i was hurt or betrayed you were there to tell me itll be ok
when you found out i was actually fleeing my past, you took me into your heart
and told me i have nothing to fear
for this i thank you

1145377  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2011-12-17
Written: (3230 days ago)
Next in thread: 1145412

well, again things arent going the way i plan, i almost commit suicide last week after my mom and me argued, then i put up with my dad in his bad mood about his bitch of an ex,jennifer, sometimes i wish i could just say fuck it and BOOM!! but theres too much i would leave behind, though i dont see the reason to live something stops me...please if your a friend answer this question..

--if i died tommarrow, what would you say to me today?

1145268  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2011-12-14
Written: (3234 days ago)

well, today turned out in the total oppisite of what i had planned, me and my mom got into an argumen, she pushed me against the wall and it gave way, now theres a hole in the wall...thanks alot mom, thanks for putting me down in every way possibile, i do everything for you and im still not good enough...maybe if i was gone you wouldnt have to put up with me anymore..hows that sound? does that make you happy?

1144958  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2011-12-06
Written: (3242 days ago)
Next in thread: 1144995

a little known interesting facts about the things in every day life

-coca cola, was originally meant for medicinal purposes, gets its name from kola nuts and (yes this is true) cocaine, said to cure anything from a hangover to surgery.

-pepsi, originally called "brads drink" was alost meant for medicinal purposes, and was used to help aid digestion.

-tetris, the common block game was created in the soviet union as a mind game for the students of the university of moscow

1144143  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2011-11-12
Written: (3266 days ago)

"They called me the Leather Apron
They called me the smiling Jack
They prayed to the heavens above
That I would never ever come back"

Can you hear how the children weep?
Chills of fear like a sawblade cutting deep

Once again there is pain
I bring flames - I bring cold
I'm the Blood Red Sandman coming home
On this unholy night I will make you my own
Blood Red Sandman
Coming home again

Red drops stain satin so white
-"The way I sign my name"
The neighborhood's pretty dead at night
-"And I'm the one to blame"


Can you hear how the children weep?
Chills of fear like a sawblade cutting deep
Once again there is pain
I bring flames - I bring cold
I'm the Blood Red Sandman coming home
On this unholy night I will make you my own
Blood Red Sandman
Coming home again
I'm coming home again

Scream all you want you won't wake up when you scream
"No-one leaves...
... The Monsterican Dream"

Can you hear how the children weep?
Chills of fear like a sawblade cutting deep

Once again there is pain
I bring flames - I bring cold
I'm the Blood Red Sandman coming home
On this unholy night I will make you my own
Blood Red Sandman
Coming home again

Once again there is pain
I bring flames - I bring cold
I'm the Blood Red Sandman coming home
On this unholy night I will make you my own
Blood Red Sandman
Coming home again

1144100  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2011-11-11
Written: (3267 days ago)

[JAVERT]
Valjean, at last,
We see each other plain
`M'sieur le Mayor,'
You'll wear a different chain!

[VALJEAN]
Before you say another word, Javert
Before you chain me up like a slave again
Listen to me! There is something I must do.
This woman leaves behind a suffering child.
There is none but me who can intercede,
In Mercy's name, three days are all I need.
Then I'll return, I pledge my word.
Then I'll return...

[JAVERT]
You must think me mad!
I've hunted you across the years
Men like you can never change
A man such as you.

[VALJEAN (in counterpoint)]
Believe of me what you will
There is a duty that I'm sworn to do
You know nothing of my life
All I did was steal some bread
You know nothing of the world
You would sooner see me dead
But not before I see this justice
done
I am warning you Javert
I'm a stronger man by far
There is power in me yet
My race is not yet run
I am warning you Javert
There is nothing I won't dare
If I have to kill you here
I'll do what must be done!

[JAVERT (in counterpoint)]
Men like me can never change
Men like you can never change
No,
24601
My duty's to the law - you have no
Rights
Come with me 24601
Now the wheel has turned around
Jean Valjean is nothing now
Dare you talk to me of crime
And the price you had to pay
Every man is born in sin
Every man must choose his way
You know nothing of Javert
I was born inside a jail
I was born with scum like you
I am from the gutter too!

[Valjean breaks a chair and threatens Javert with the broken piece. Turns to Fantine]

[VALJEAN]
[to Fantine] And this I swear to you tonight

[JAVERT]
[to Valjean] There is no place for you to hide

[VALJEAN]
Your child will live within my care

[JAVERT]
Wherever you may hide away

[VALJEAN]
And I will raise her to the light.

[VALJEAN AND JAVERT]
I swear to you, I will be there!

[They fight, Javert is knocked out. Valjean escapes

1144068  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2011-11-10
Written: (3268 days ago)

Part 1]
Daddy's flown across the ocean
Leaving just a memory
A snapshot in the family album
Daddy, what else did ya leave for me?
Daddy, whatcha leave behind for me?
All in all it was just a brick in the wall
All in all it was all just bricks in the wall

[Part 2]
We don't need no education
We don't need no thought control
No dark sarcasm in the classroom
Teachers, leave them kids alone
Hey, Teachers, leave those kids alone

All in all its just another brick in the wall
All in all you're just another brick in the wall

We don't need no education
We don't need no thought control
No dark sarcasm in the classroom
Teachers, leave them kids alone
Hey, Teachers, leave those kids alone

All in all you're just another brick in the wall
All in all you're just another brick in the wall
[guitar]

[Part 3]
I don't need no arms around me
I don't need no drugs to calm me
I have seen the writing on the wall
Don't think I need anything at all
No, don't think I need anything at all
All in all it was all just bricks in the wall
All in all you were all just bricks in the wall

[Goodbye Cruel World]
Goodbye, cruel world
I'm leaving you today
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

Goodbye, all you people
There's nothing you can say
To make me change my mind
Goodbye

1144067  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2011-11-10
Written: (3268 days ago)

Pick me up
Been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
I'll stop it somehow

I will make it go away
Can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone

Now I see the times they change
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Shut me off
I'm ready, heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be my own

I will make it go away
Can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone

Now I see the times they change
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm running from?
Is there nothing more to come?
(Am I gonna leave this place?)
Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take its place?
Am I going to win this race?
(Am I going to leave this race?)
I guess God's up in this place?
What is it that I've become?
Is there something more to come?
(More to come)

Now I see the times they change
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Now I see the times they change
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man

1144057  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2011-11-10
Written: (3268 days ago)

I am clearly broken
And no one knows what to do
Pieces of the puzzles don't fit so I'm coming into you
Itching is a pulse inside
Screaming out to come alive
It's just you and I
It's time to

Times are looking grim these days
Holding on to everything
It's hard to draw the line

Shut the fuck up, get up [x3ntaro]

I can't wait to rip my eyes out and look at you
Peace through pain is trash
Especially when it's done by you

Itching is a pulse inside
Screaming out to come alive
It's just you and I
It's time to

Times are looking grim these days
Holding on to everything
It's hard to draw the line
And I, I'm hiding in this empty space
Torture all my memories
Of what I left behind

Shut the fuck up, get up [x3ntaro]

Shut
Up

Times are looking grim these days
Holding on to everything
It's hard to draw the line
And I, I'm hiding in this empty space
Torture all my memories
Of what I left behind

Shut the fuck up, get up [x3

1143945  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2011-11-07
Written: (3271 days ago)

When I woke up this morning
Wiped the sleep from my eyes
Found a new day dawning
And suddenly I realize
You're gone

Tell me I was dreaming
That you didn't leave me here to cry
You didn't say you don't love me anymore
And it was just my imagination telling lies
Tell me that you didn't say goodbye

I'm in a state of confusion
I hope things aren't what they seem
If this is really happening
Just let me go back to dream
You're home

Tell me I was dreaming
That you didn't leave me here to cry
You didn't say you don't love me anymore
And it was just my imagination telling lies
Tell me that you didn't say goodbye

Tell me I was dreaming
That you didn't leave me here to cry
You didn't say you don't love me anymore
And it was just my imagination telling lies
Tell me that you didn't say goodbye

1143853  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2011-11-04
Written: (3274 days ago)

It's another back-door sneakin' in
Where you been? midnight
Quiet as a mack truck-lotsa luck
Thinkin' up an alibi
But every light in the house is on
Everything is gone

She left me no chance at redemption
No further exemption
Just a big red "goodbye" is lipstick on the wall
Goodbye says it all
No long explanation
No reconciliation
No let's-talk-it-over number I can call
Goodbye says it all
Goodbye...

She could have thrown a knock-down scream-and-shout
Have-it-out tirade
She could have made it real tough bringing up
All the hell that I raised
But no more wasted words on me
No, she kept short and sweet

She left me no chance at redemption
No further exemption
Just a big red "goodbye" is lipstick on the wall
Goodbye says it all
No long explanation
No reconciliation
No let's-talk-it-over number I can call
Goodbye says it all
Goodbye...

No more wasted words on me
No, she kept short and sweet

She left me no chance at redemption
No further exemption
Just a big red "goodbye" is lipstick on the wall
Goodbye says it all
No long explanation
No reconciliation
No let's-talk-it-over number I can call
Goodbye says it all
Goodbye...

1143841  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2011-11-03
Written: (3275 days ago)

Well momma told me, when I was young
Said sit beside me, my only son
And listen closely to what I say
And if you do this, it'll help you some sunny day

Oh take your time, don't live too fast
Troubles will come and they will pass
You'll find a woman and you'll find love
And don't forget that there is a someone up above

[chorus]
And be a simple kind of man
And be a something you love and understand
Baby be a simple kind of man
Oh won't you do this for me son if you can


Get your lust from the rich man's gold
All that you need now is in your soul
And you can do this, oh baby if you try
All that I want from you my son is to be satisfied

[chorus]
And be a simple kind of man
Be a something you love and understand
Baby be a simple kind of man
Won't you do this for me son if you can


Oh don't you worry
You'll find yourself
Follow your heart
And nothing else
And you can do this, oh baby if you try
All that I want from you my son is to be satisfied

[chorus]
And be a simple kind of man
Oh won't you do this for me son if you can
So baby be a simple, be a simple man
Oh won't you do this for me son if you can

1143840  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2011-11-03
Written: (3275 days ago)

Well, I was thumbin' from Montgomery
I had my guitar on my back
When a stranger stopped beside me in an antique Cadillac
Well he was dressed like 1950
Half drunk and hollow-eyed
He said "Its a long walk to Nashville
Would you like a ride, son?"
And well I sat down in the front seat, he turned on the radio
Them sad old songs comin' out of them speakers was solid country gold
And I noticed the stranger was ghost-white pale
When he asked me for a light
And I knew there was something strange about this ride

(Chorus)
He said "Drifter can ya make folks cry when you play and sing?
Have you paid your dues, can you moan the blues?
Can you bend them guitar strings?"
He said "Boy, can you make folks feel what you feel inside?
Cause if you're big star bound let me warn ya, its a long, hard ride"

Then he cried just south of Nashville
And he turned that car around
He said "This is where you get off boy,
Cause I'm goin' back to Alabam'"
As I stepped out of that Cadillac
I said "Mister, many thanks"
He said "You don't have to call me Mister, Mister.,
The whole world called me Hank

Chorus x2

If you're big star bound
Let me warn ya its a long, hard ride

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